Seeing white light while meditating!

Last night at Hatha yoga, I had a profound experience in my personal meditation experience.  

We were meditating on a Saint and for the first time in my life, when I relaxed into the meditation and closed my eyes . . . my normal grey black field of view changed to white and throughout the meditation a river of white energy flowed in front of my inner vision.  

I have no other explanation other than my perception of this Saintly energy was the white river.

I consider it a breakthrough for me personally!

Maitreya Loving Kindness Tour

Buddha Relics or Maitreya Loving Kindness Tour is in Des Moines, Iowa for 10 days starting August 15th, 2014.

http://www.maitreyarelictour.com/

My husband and I have had the great privilege to volunteer again this year. The tour was here 2 years ago and there was so much to take in that I didn't allow myself to settle down, relax and feel the energy.

We volunteered last Saturday and again, I was so excited to be participating again that I couldn't settle down....I was just abuzz with enthusiastic energy.

I volunteered today, by myself, and my solo experience was very different from my previous encounters with the energy of the relics and the people that have come to witness the relics.

I posted myself as the Blessing Assistant...this is after the people have viewed the relic display and are waiting for a Buddhist monk to bless them.  The room has such an overwhelming sense of sacred calm, much like the memories of holding my breath under water at the city swimming pool as a child and opening my eyes.  I felt removed from the chaos of the world and the sound was muted and it felt almost in slow motion at times.

I heard crying, sobbing and had to bring myself back to the now to see what was happening.  A man was on his knees in front of the case that had the relic of the original Buddha.  I caught myself because I felt like I wanted to give him a hug but restrained myself.  Many people as they experience the relics will be quietly emotional and tearful.  It touches different people in different ways and people need to experience what they need to experience without intrusion.

After he had gone around the display, he walked by me.  I felt a HUGE wave of emotion that caught me so off guard.  I felt myself wobble and started to feel overwhelmed with emotion.  I felt tears start to well inside me.  I quickly took several cleansing breaths to ground and calm myself.

I know I said wow out loud.

Now that the energy of the room had my attention, I decided to do a bit of meditation with my eyes open.  I have never been successful in the past but felt today was different, special, magical.  I have recently learned Laya yoga meditation and proceeded to send my mantra out to the universe...with my eyes open....waiting for the universe to respond.  My yoga teacher tells me to wait for the universe to return a sound back to me, like an echo.  As I waited, I felt my vision narrow and a fog came across my vision like a curtain falling.  I wondered, what is happening and then blinked a couple of time and as quickly as it arrived, the fog vanished.

I felt giddy after that.  My legs would tingle when some people talked to me but not every with everyone.  Hmmm.....

At the end of my shift, I felt a bit off kilter.....happy and pleased with how I had spent my afternoon.

Thank you for the new experiences!

Namaste!

Energy, Spirit, Angels, Guides and Ascended Masters, et al

Last night at our Energy Lab meeting while dowsing, we discussed how people perceive the presence of Energy, Spirit, Angels, Guides and Ascended Masters, etc in their midst and lives.  Several people said they have felt the presence and actions of angels, etc in their lives for many years….they just know they are there…they can feel it.  These “energies” are real for them because they “know”.

I didn’t get it.  It was suggested that I quit trying so hard and just “be” and allow and it will happen.  One person applied this concept to my personal life, and asked would I be able to sense my husband of 36 year standing next to me in a pitch black room…  I looked at him and said yes, I think I would.  So I believe that I can feel the energy of certain things, situations….and I want to “calibrate my sensors” to pick up angels etc. 

It could be that I push so hard to understand “things” that that might be limiting me but that is another topic altogether and I believe there is “truth” there.  I do feel it is difficult to be me at times, so for me to just "be" is a hard concept…..I feel I am rambling and getting circular so I will get down to my point.

As I was listening to the people in my group talking about how they sense Energy, Spirit, Angels, Guides and Ascended Masters, et al.  I know they were telling me their truth, but it was all different.  I was reminded about the story of the blind men and the elephant.  I believe it is an Indian story about several blind men who are touching and describing an elephant.  One describes the tail, one the ears, one the tusk and so on.  The story is a metaphor for how I believe we experience the energy of the universe; the story can be about conflict and/or resolution.  Each of us “feels” it differently and there could be some “ego” attached to some people who  know what they feel…so they must be right about the elephant…..energy.

I propose to myself and you, that we are all blind, feeling our way, witnessing what we experience and that the “elephant in the room” is the universe and all of its mysteries….uniquely unfolding for each of us.

In Search of Truth

A little about me…. I am a skeptic by nature and a recovering accountant.  I think things should be logical and I used to think that most things in life are black or white, right or wrong and there is 1 right answer to all questions.  And there are Truths (big “T”) that we all share.  How wrong could I be?  That’s where this path starts with me... discovering my truths.

I have always been drawn to science fiction, space and it is no surprise to anyone that I am a fan of Star Trek.  I liken my adventures to Star Trek and have adapted the opening monologue:

Energy: the final frontier. These are my adventures.  My lifetime mission: to explore strange new ideas, to experience awareness, enlightenment and the universal energy field, to boldly go where I have not been before.

As I have moved along my spiritual path, I have discovered that there is a lot of gray and there can be many “right” answers.  And how frustrating is that?  What is the Truth?

I have found in seeking the truth, the more it challenges my beliefs.  People want to help and are quick to speak the Truth (big “T”).  But what if it doesn’t feel right, if it doesn’t resonate?  I have a lot of questions and find that what has been represented to me as Truth (big “T”) is really their truth (little ”t”).   

I have decided that I am no longer willing to take someone else’s truth (little “t”) and make it my truth.  I have decided I am no longer content to sit back passively (listen and read)…I need to discover my truth and I need to actively experience it for myself.

Stay tuned.